why why why why why!!!!!!

I dont know how to start it but i guess i have to do this anyway. I cldn't come to class yesterday. It is a very bad thing though but i had no option but fortunately or unfortunately after yesterday i came to class late and also to meet a test paper which i know i did not make the best out of. Actually i was thirty minutes late and i guess it is really disgusting. I am only praying God does sometin supernatural to enable me pass this module it has been really tough, i mean very tough but i know with God all things are possible I put sometin on the answer sheet and with that God himself will do something. Why is it that sometimes i lose focus and my principles become weak on me. Why is it that i find it sometimes very difficult to do what i want to do rather i do what i don't want to do with so much ease. Why Why Why there are lots of whys i cannot put in writing but i pray befor i get to a certain level known to just myself and my God i will have an answer to all the why's and i will now do what i want to do.

I have to learn harder and i think i have finally decided on my marriage issue if only nothing comes up later.

Database concepts is trying to push me to the wall. It looks as if i am not coping with it but today is the turning point when i get home sorry for you database concepts cos i am going to understand you to the fullest i know it is because of  the teacher taking it but that is not enough excuse for a child of the one who gives wisdom to have a problem with database concepts. Thanx just met a database Administrator by name Mr. Mensah who is ready to help with any questions i will have to ask. I guess this is a stepping stone to achieving what i said formally. I will continue on the second part of the decision on ma marriage issue.